Alarm was set to go off at 6. At 5:58, I woke up, saw that my husband was still in bed, and turned my alarm off. Woke up approximately and hour later and rolled out of bed, trying to decide how I felt about yet again not doing what I told myself I was going to do. Apathy is a weird emotion. Or lack of emotion? I don't know. It's strange.
My kids woke up and we went through our normal morning ritual. I gathered up my running clothes and hopped into the shower, and somewhere between shampooing and conditioning, I decided that running was not going to happen today. Other parts of my life needed to be tended to. Running could wait.
As I typed those last words just now, I nearly cringed, knowing that running has been waiting. It's been over a month since I've done any real running, and I feel like I've been *thisclose* to not being able to call myself a runner anymore. But that's another topic for another post.
Where was I? Oh, right. In the shower. (My apologies - "Don't picture it!" as my aunt used to say) After deciding not to run, I felt lighter, and I began to think of all the things that I would do today, instead, while my daughter was in school. Run errands. Clean house. Listen to Christmas music (don't judge). Have coffee. Blog. Be.
Guess what? I did all of those things. I went to Target and got all the things on my list (and a few that weren't!). I came home, had breakfast and watched Sleepy Hollow, and then I put on some Christmas music, cranked it up, and proceeded to clean my kitchen. It felt wonderful. I danced, I sang, I scrubbed, I got funny looks from my dog.... It was great.
Now I have about an hour before I have to go get my daughter from school, and I think I'm going to spend some of that time vacuuming. Exciting, right? Well, no. But shaking off the lethargy of these past weeks feels good. Even if I'm not directing my energy into running or working out, at least I'm not sitting on my butt watching t.v. and eating Girl Scout cookies feeling crappy about myself.
(Though I may have a Thin Mint or two after I vacuum. I'm only human, after all)
Do you ever listen to Christmas music before Thanksgiving? I never used to, but I kinda liked it today. =)