Thursday, April 3, 2014

April Already?

How is it that individual days can seem so slow, yet you blink and entire months have gone by?

I can't believe it's the 3rd of April already (and nearly the 4th, as I type this!).  I feel like just yesterday it was the New Year.  Already I'm facing my first weekend of racing for 2014, with back to back races coming up this Saturday and Sunday.  I am incredibly, undeniably, not in shape to run either of these races - even at a "leisurely" pace.  Due to some unfortunate family circumstances, I didn't run at all in the past week, and today when I went out to try to get in a "shake  out" run before this weekend, I barely managed two miles before I admitted defeat.

My legs are heavy.  I haven't slept well in days.  I'm not ready in any way for this weekend.  Saturday is a 5K that I'm only running  because I really want to meet some internet friends "in real life."  (Did you know Facebook isn't considered real life?  Weird. I talk to my FB friends more often than I talk to my husband most weeks!) So Saturday I'm not skipping.  Sunday, however, I could just bag.  I'm not going to the race with anyone, no one is meeting me there, no one would even care if I didn't go.  But every time I think about not running the race, I get sad.

I looked back at my "training" log from last spring, and my running going into the Cherry Blossom race last year was rather dismal.  And I still managed to have a great day, and finish in a time I never would have expected.  So what is it about this year that has me convinced of certain doom?   I don't know.  Something feels different this year.  Maybe because it's a year later and I'm still making the same stupid mistakes.  Maybe I'm just angry with myself for not being in better shape.  Maybe I just don't think lightening can strike twice.  Who knows.

I guess by 10 a.m. on Sunday, I'll either have proved myself wrong, or be sitting in the back of a SAG wagon.  Either way, I'll probably be crying.  LOL

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  1. As long as Sunday;s race is a short one, I think you should be fine. But definitely listen to your body! Good luck either way :)

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    1. Thanks!

      Sunday's race is 10 miles. Which I guess is short to marathoners, but not to me. =)

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  2. What if you make the decision on Sunday after tomorrow's race? And once you make the decision - be OK with it!! Sometimes you have to cut yourself some slack.
    So cool that you will be meeting some internet friends tomorrow - good luck and have fun!!

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    1. Thanks! I will make my decision after today's race, and I'm trying to tell myself it doesn't matter either way, but being at packet pickup last night kind of got me hyped up for Sunday's race, so... I don't know! LOL

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  3. I consider some of my online friends "real" for sure! :) My husband thinks it's a little kooky though. LOL

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